Before Sahaja Yoga, my life was darkened by mental illness. Day by day, I plodded through college work with a sense of dread. I spent time with marijuana smokers as well as heavier drug users at times. I felt like a social misfit. I fit in nowhere and would go through psychotic episodes and mood swings that would go on endlessly. I was destructive to the property of others and would test my parents at home to see who could scream louder.
For the past three and a half years, I’ve been using the techniques of Sahaja Yoga to cleanse my inner vision. I now have a genuine interest in learning and participating in society and bettering American culture. The turning point for me was about six months after I began practicing Sahaja Yoga and started to see the minute changes that were occurring. I saw Shri Mataji speak at the Cathedral of St. John the Divine in Manhattan in the summer of ’96. From then on, I gradually and spontaneously gave up on drug abuse and many other issues which have attacked my life.
The older people in Sahaja Yoga have seen the changes in me too. When I walk into a room full of yogis, I feel welcomed, not paranoid. When I spend time with other yogis, I feel like family to them, not a stranger. I look forward to spending time with my parents, not dreading it. I feel enlightened now and remain proud of that knowledge. I feel like a vital part of the human race. I wake up in the morning and am ready to enjoy another day and am finally a pleasant person to spend time with!